GONE

Another night of debauchery – hella crunk. I haven’t kicked it with JP since “that night da the club” – what a night – I could write a long ass blog based on the events of said night “at da club”. So, JP phones me after I get my ass handed to me in Golf, my cuz is ill with dem irons. Around 7 I grab a few Beck’s and head to his place for our last throw-down in his tiny apartment. He’s already lit, on his 7^th, me on my 3^rd. He makes Red Headed Sluts, his favorite drink. I don’t know what the hell he put in that shit but I was intoxicated after 2 – I’m sure the beer I consumed prior added to the effect. What’s the saying, “liquor before beer have no fear”? I had fear in my blood, in my eyes – thank you “Chaser” – another night I can consumed more drinks than usual thanks to a few pills of sober-up medicine. We’re knocking these beers back, chain smoking, throwing bottles and cans at the trains flying by. It started when the trains blew their whistles – we retaliated by tossing roughly 12 to 20 bottles and cans at the trains – splattums! Our ears needed revenge!

JP and I got into some serious conversations; most starting from that night in da club and what has transpired afterwards. I tried to get him to elaborate on his current situations, but, he really wanted to hear about my women drama – thanks dude!

So…I’ve unexpectedly met and clicked with a certain someone – more than I expected. I started working at a new company; focused on putting my career and life back on track – the LAST thing on my mind was falling for someone, sharing myself when I’m very vulnerable and slightly po' - Anyways, this women had a ‘boyfriend’ at the time; which didn’t strike me as being too good of a relationship since we were starting to spend a lot time together, socially – chatting about this-and-that, getting personal – normal stuff ya know? I never considered her ‘taken’; come to think of it, I told myself she has relationship problems – something I’m willing to help her through. Plus, I’m not THAT grimy, honestly – I’m not looking to holla at someone else’s women either, especially if it’s made clear to me that said persons “involved’. Things could’ve stayed at the plutonic level and not moved to the spot we’re in now. She’s THAT type of women – your lucky to have her as a friend and luckier if she’s willing to know you on another level… I can tell she doenst play either... and 1!

JP: JJ, you seem to get involved with 2 types of women, REALLY stooopid or really smart. Maybe you’ll meet one in the middle of those 2 categories, but honestly dude, I’ve known you for years and those are YOUR types of women! The young, dumb, impressionable women or the smart, educated ones that’s challenge you and appear to value YOU for YOU – ohh yeah dude, dem smart ones usually break your heart.

He’s speaking truth though – I don’t want someone that conforms, molds to you, losing THEIR individuality – letting me RUN SHIT – not my scene – those traits don’t interest me in the long run. Also, I don’t like my heart or feelings being kicked around like a fucking soccer ball either – smart ones do that to me – I get ga-ga over intellect and a few other things… I don’t ask for much; but, I do ask for respect – honesty – trust – conversation – backgrubs - and a few other things... - is that too much to ask for?

Fuck you Jeeves, I know what I want and don’t need to ask…

JP: Yo, – what do you like, cans or bottles?
ME: I don’t know – depends on what’s there…
JP: Think about your shit and what I said, do you like’em dumb or smart / can or bottle?
ME: putting in that way, I like my bottles dude – look what I got now – when’s the last time you caught me with a fucking can..

JP: Now, do the right thing for yourself – enjoy your bottle – tasted good huh? Enjoy the fun you’ve had consuming it, cherish each sip. Dont be soo quick to get another beer either man.
Enjoy the beer you have right now; learn to understand how "intoxicated" you get and have fun!

…JP lights ANOTHER cig – 3 in a row

JP: You know, I'm saying all this to you and you're completely aware that I *JUST* ended a 4 year relationship. I know you feel me bro...

JP: straight up; if you like what you got going on – continue. Don’t get carried away – be honest with her and yourself, respecting your situation and what SHE’S doing to be with you. I see you’ve put your trust in her already, word. So, have you two….

Something to be said about drunken conversations...