GONE

Magnolia style

Odds shit falling from the sky (no, not the frogs), odd feelings in my head and heart. Fuck. I need to shut it all off for an hour, maybe more. Yeah, I need to shut my shit off longer than an hour. I feel the more I say the more pain I cause for others. I don’t see why this cant be simple, free from stress and drama – enjoyable - as pleasurable as every time we’re in each others arms, relishing in each others company. I know what I need to ease my thoughts, my worries…. I need you in my arms. I know I won’t be in your arms tonight but I look forward to being in your arms tomorrow.

Trials and Tribulations - Why Jadakiss, why?

I’m getting drunk tonight, DRizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzUNK, blurred vision, greasy food, temptations, chaser and Tylenol. Another problem; no one will drink with me tonight (at the moment). Adam wont, he’s staying at Patty’s tonight. Jason’s working, Brad is MIA. “Da Crew” is too busy hustling to enjoy themselves (not my scene – another reason I left early last night)! I have a few numbers left to call, Adam’s sister maybe, Jen’s always down. Haha – he’d kill me! Fuck it.

Maybe I should make more friends……

Honestly, all I really want to do is drink a few pints, send a cute text message or two, watch the NBA Finals, go home to sleep off my slur and have sweet dreams to start Friday off propa, eager! I would’ve gotten drunk this evening, regardless. You know I enjoy an evening with the mates, drinking, laughing. You know how I feel about our time together…

My thought of the day is not to take anything or anyone for granted; I’m very appreciative of my scene, of you. I do not take us for granted, I hope you dont either. Remember when we discussed actions speaking louder than words? This shouldn’t be stressful; this should be simple, this could be a lot of things. Please be mindful...

Maybe I’ll find comfort tomorrow; maybe you’ll find comfort tonight, hopefully you’ll realize your comfort with me tomorrow – don’t forget, dont blink....