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Summer sunny day.....

It's beautiful outside, it's perfect inside too! Yep, it's the first day of summer and the longest day of the year! I hope the work day doesnt go too long, I could use a beer and some time on the turntables.

It's been a great challenge and experience running the IT Department. I'm all for challenges, especially the professional kind. I've got "mad experience", enough that I can strut into my job with ease knowing I have the ability to fix any and all IT related problems. What do I need to fix today - everything! Minor tweaks here and there, reboots, updates and more behind the scenes stuff BOFH's keep to themselves. I have 5 monitors running, each with its own function/purpose. Ahhh, if I only had 5 eyes... haha. Seriously though, I've yet to encounter a problem I couldnt deal with, fix. Sure, the internet could go down and the phones could stop working, I'd be able to handle that - no problems. What else goes wrong... everything. Problems existing between keyboard and chair are harder to fix. You have to educate... educating is hard to do depending on the person. I'm a good teacher, you've yet to see all of my knowledge and experience come into plya, making "executive" decisions. Ahh the joys of having 8 jobs in 8 years.

Enough geeky banter. I have other topics to discuss...

First off, I'd like to give a big FUCK YOU to OPEC. Yes, OPEC. $61 dollars a barrel / $3 gallons of gas and a 1.8million barrel increase a day - over summer! So, FUCK OPEC. Dont believe the hype? Hype 1 and Hype 2 - watch all the middle fingers being tossed up at the gas signs, I'm not the only one...

Secondly, Wimbledon started today. I know most dont care, I do! I'm an old, burnt out tennis pro. Just kidding. I almost pursued a tennis career; damn technology and my fascination for all things electronic. Another life... Anyways, there's alot of hype behind Roger Federrer, he's sick but best ever? Nah.. One name, Arthur Ashe - sickestever.com. These comments came from the mouths of of Andre Agassi and Pete Sampras, whatever d00ds! The women's bracket is what I watch the most, not for Maria. Yeah, she's a gunner but she's good, she got hella game. Plus, the women do more with the ball and PLAY the game. It's not about power for them. They serve and volley, play the lines - chess tennis!

So, my banter is over. Now I must get out one last thought (or 2 or 3).

Yesterday...mmmm

I never thought I'd struggle. I never thought I'd stumble to say what I feel, what I think and what I know. I know how I feel about her, honestly / wholeheartedly. I know I can look her in the eyes and tell her how I feel; even when she's coaxing me to tell her again. I have no problems telling her either. As long as I mean it, all is good. If I didnt mean it, didnt struggle, unable to think and feel then it would be a lie and I'd be dishonest! Well, my dear, I'm neither. What I am, hmmmm... I'm a lover. I'm a friend. I'm alot of things, you're finding this out. You've seen my magic in progress and I've see you grow in this process!

She's touched me in the same ways; even though she's not able to say it yet I can see it coming, in her eyes, from her smile and one day, someday, emulating from her beautiful body. I can tell you I feel THAT vibe coming off me today. I'm very happy, unable to feel hurt or frustration (given today's sad news and all...). I'm anxious and anticipating this weekend. Actually, I felt that way on my drive into work. I wanted to see her, even if it was professionally. I wanted to see her, see what I've done for her and how it's changed us. No, I'm not talking about my 20 minute back massage either... she knows, she cares and she smiled.

Let the sun shine...