GONE

epic!

last night was great. everything. thanks B!


starting the evening out with 2 pints of Oktoberfest beer. Apparently Oktoberfest starts in September (16 days before the first Sunday), which is odd, considering the name "Oktoberfest". But as the lanky at the pub told me; "it's rather cold in Germany during Oktoberfest and the "organizers" thought it would be best to start in September."

So, yeah... pour me another pint of the seasonal AND a sample of the swarnbier.

cheers.

"it's all fun and games until someone gets hurt."

The game started off as means to have fun. As the first goal went in the game quickly turned into a shit talking contest with many names tossed around like a soccer ball, or in this case, a foosball.

"you're vulnerable with your attackers."

Turns out _I_ got _my_ ass handed to me! BT's a wizard on the sticks. Even drunk he's able to find the angles; regardless if he's spent most of the 2 games playing impeccable defense (because he's too drunk to play offense). I should practice against someone less experienced than I.

As we played we'd have banter. vulnerablilities and insecurities. topics of the evening...

"what makes you feel vulnerable?"

I learned a lot about myself these past 2 years of my life. I've realized what makes me vulnerable and what I can do to control how I feel. After all, am I the one who creates the insecurities and vulnerabilities in my life? Most. Yeah, there are a few things beyond my control; vulnerabilities not my by choice. By my choice or not the experiences I have dealing with my issues made me a stronger man.

The subjects in my life are linkages of cause and effect (...even if comprehensible only in retrospect), I know that now. I've been blessed to see the correlation between (and with) many things in my life. And yes, I realized I've missed out on some things...

To live is to learn, right, is that how it goes? I'm glad to have a true friend like B. He's one of dem cats you count on one hand, feel meh?

...and I need to figure out / learn what the fuck last nights dream meant. scary. maybe it wouldnt seem so scary if i understood what it meant.

later for that shit though...



it's almost beer-o-clock and i've got a date with Neeko. finally, after days of phone tag and flames we're doing it proper. sickest. see you @ the ale house - dont leave me hanging either! cheers!